It's like I wanna die an' endure the pain;
chained to a wall by cuffs, watching it all go away.

Slowly killing myself when no one knows;
being distant and trying to let them go.

Trying different ways but nothing seems to work,
the only thing in my time I can do is hope.

Faking a smile, not letting them know
that despair is the path I personally chose.

In thoughts I'm myself, and act normally;
but infront of my mom I can only act happy,

because I can only hope that she cares about me,
so I try to be someone else so desperately.

I wanna feel this pain that makes me so insane,
I wanna go through it all to make the thoughts go away.

My heart slows down like the saddest metronome,
I have nothing to do but to kill myself at home.

It's like I wanna die and feel physical pain,
chained to a wall, watching it all pass away.

Slowly killing myself when no one knows,
being distant, not wanting to let them go.

Faking a smile, not letting them know,
that despair is the path
I personally chose.